2020 Day 4: Undone and Time Travel

A couple days ago I binged watched Undone, a animated TV show on Amazon.  I relate with Alma. I’ve tried before to “move my keys” and other items using my “superpower”. I sometimes experience time as moving backwards – effects occur earlier than their causes. It was difficult for me to associate Alma with someone with a mental illness. There is definitely a part of me that wants to not write about my thoughts and experiences around the nature or reality because I may begin believing things that are not true or my mind fractures into way too many parallel universes.  A bigger fear is that the mind of someone else would fracture into too many parallel universes.  So far, I feel pretty ground myself but I can see how easy it would be to become ungrounded.

I highly recommend watching Undone!

2020 Day 3: In the Wormhole of Consumption and Creation

The sun is just now rising over the trees to the east of my garden window. I am using my iPad to create this post instead of consuming content with my iPhone. Actually, strike that because I’m now using my Mac Book Pro while my iPad updates it’s software. I must mention a synchronistic experience I had before upgrading my iPad software. When I tried to surf to google.com, my Safari web browser told me it could not form a secure connection to the website. The same thing happened when I tried to surf to the web domain yahoo.com. I was able to surf to other websites, including wordpress.com.  This was both unexpected and meaningful to me. The meaning I gave to it was a confirmation that the closing of the wormhole of consumption was at least partially successful! It will be interesting to see if these consumption domains are still blocked after I upgrade my iPad operating software.

I like that Apple is now showing me my screen time.  Yesterday, I used this information to make note of the 90 minutes of consumption of financial content I was performing each day. I decided to use this as the center of the consumption side of the wormhole that I want to use to travel to the creation side of the wormhole. I’m noticing now that my future self already recognized this as a successful wormhole center and my past self was able to subconsciously feel this and post about financial content, providing the initial openings of this wormhole. Words are limiting to describe all of this and so please forgive my use of a wormhole metaphor. Please also don’t focus too much analysis on the mechanisms of how one’s future self can communicate to one’s past self. The point of this post is for me to describe my synchronicities and how I’m visualizing the anchoring of the wormhole between two sets of different universes, consumption universes and creation universes, between which I’m attempting to travel. There are other ways in which one could describe “replacing old bad habits with new good habits”. I’m using the wormhole analogy here because it fits in well with other universe surfing metaphors.

So for my wormhole, I have it anchored with consumption of financial content on one side and creation of financial content on the other side. Other anchors I wish to add to keep this wormhole open are around news, Facebook, and youTube.  I think converting each of these from consumer to creator will help surround me with my more preferred set of universes.

For my own anchoring, it feels important for me to put a bit of financial content creation into this post.  I manage my own retirement accounts and primarily invest in individual stocks. For 2019, I was blessed to have AAPL and AMD as my top two investments. I hedged these growth stocks with some value stocks (IBM, WETF, DS, SFM, and NOK) which also provided a bit of diversification. I sold some AAPL and AMD to rebalance my portfolio for 2020 and plan to now only check my portfolio monthly. Because I view reality through a multi-dimensional lens, my stock buy/sell decisions are also made with this same lens. I don’t consciously use any universe surfing “tricks” to make the stocks I buy go up or to select the stocks I buy or sell. If I do anything magical, I attempt to channel Warren Buffet and imagine what stocks he would purchase based on the company’s market and share of that market, the company’s leadership and trustworthiness of that leadership, and the company’s financial fundamentals. Actually, I do use one analysis process that is related to universe surfing – I sometimes consider the probability of different outcomes and weight these as I would if I were gambling.  As a simple example, I may estimate that worst case a stock will drop half over the next year and that best case it will double in price. I may then give a 30% chance it will drop in half, a 50% chance it will stay roughly the same, and a 20% chance it will double. Using these estimates, and assuming a current price of $100, I predict a future price over the next year of 30%($50) + 50%($100)+ 20%($200), which is $15 + $50 + $40 = $105, or a 5% return. If my choice is to invest in this stock or pay off some of my car loan that has a 6% annual interest rate, then I choose to pay off my car loan. If instead I estimated that there was only a 20% chance it would drop in half and a 30% chance it would double, then using the same analysis I would get a future predicted price of $10 + $50 + $60 = $115, or a 15% return.  In this case, I may choose to buy the stock depending on the faith I had in my estimates (which would be another level of probability analysis).

I feel complete now for today. I’ve spent about an hour on the post and have spent less than 30 minutes consuming financial content.  I had to check my visa statement for southwest airline ticket charges because I had been in a universe where I was sure I bought a ticket and now there was no evidence of such a ticket being purchased. While Amazon’s “one-click” purchase may not seem like a patentable idea, from a universe surfing perspective, adding an additional confirmation click to the process does result in two sets of universes, and unfortunately in one of those sets your intended purchase does not happen.  Maybe southwest airlines should license Amazon’s patent to sell more tickets.  I’m wondering now if there’s a patent for “one-click purchase with second-click undo”.

 

 

2020 Day 2: Feeling a Short Trip and Closing the Wormhole Behind Me

I started to write this morning at 0830 and my 2014 MacBookPro battery was at 18%.  I knew it would not last long because the battery is bad, and so I looked for my charge cable.  After a bit of searching, I found it. That and later distractions took me to the present moment almost 4 hours later.  Throughout that time, I could feel both my desire to write a second post of 2020, and how easy it would be to avoid writing today.  I can tell that it will be a challenge to stay in a universe where I am writing more.  I think it will require changing some of my daily habits.  One habit I’d like to change is using my cell phone for consuming content. This feels like the best habit to transmute into creating content.  I can imagine how the switch of using my notebook to write instead of my phone to read can help me remain in the set of universes where I’m writing more.  I see this as choosing the preferred side of two ends of a wormhole. If I am successful at using my phone less for consuming content, it will act to close off the non-preferred side of the wormhole so that I have a higher chance of remaining on the preferred side of the wormhole.

Before I talk more about wormholes, I wanted to revisit one of the thoughts in my first post of 2020.  Specifically, this assertion:

I know from the memories of my experiences, and the feelings I get from imagining and sensing the memories of my experiences in parallel worlds, that reality is more than what I see.

To assert that “reality is more than what I see” is a conservative assertion. In fact, researching it now on Wikipedia, I only stated a definition of reality as being “the totality of a system, known and unknown”. When I wrote that, I remember feeling that I wanted to color clearly within the lines of what I actually know from my personal experiences. A more bold assertion would be that reality is more than a single Newtonian universe. An even bolder assertion would be that reality can be modeled as an uncountable number of Newtonian universes that energetically interact in a multi-dimensional (perhaps infinitely dimensional) space.

Consider a reality which matches this model. In this reality, you and I are more than classical beings in a single Newtonian universe. In a multi-dimensional reality, the cells in our body and neurons in our brain are only a 3-dimensional slice of our multi-dimensional cells and neurons.  We are multi-dimensional beings. Each 3-D slice of our being is energetically connected with other 3-D slices. I have found that I can train myself, and I believe that you can train yourself, to feel and recognize this multi-dimensional energy.

2020 Day 1: Seeing is Believing – Good Morning New Universe!

I awoke this morning in a new universe – a new reality – a different dimension of reality – a parallel world. As I type this, I feel myself moving through these different dimensions – I feel the influence of the different dimensions in my body, in my mind, and in my soul.  I know from the memories of my experiences, and the feelings I get from imagining and sensing the memories of my experiences in parallel worlds, that reality is more than what I see. I know that much more is possible than what I believe based on only my memories of experiences from a single thread of reality.  I know that the stories I tell myself limit the choices I make. I know that when I open my mind to the possibility of new stories, and when I imagine and sense the stories from the totality of reality as I now experience it, then the number of choices I have seem unlimited.

What sensations do I have when I feel myself moving through different dimensions? In this moment, my body feels more awake than my mind thinks it should be.  It’s 0850 local time and I went to sleep after 0300.  I normally need at least 6 hours of sleep to feel rested.  There is also a slight anxious feeling in my chest and my jaw feels tight.  My throat was sore when I awoke in a way similar to a week ago, but now I notice it feels better.  Over the last week, my body has felt stressed on and off.  The story I’ve told myself is I have a cold or allergies. This fits a single thread of reality.

The affect on my mind of moving through different dimensions is also noticeable to me. My mind feels scattered and focused at the same time.  It’s a similar feeling to when I meditate in that I can focus on my breath (or whatever – I normally focus on the smoke signal like images I see when my eyes are closed) while my mind has random thoughts come and go through it.  What feels a bit different, is that the random thoughts are incomplete – they are not fully formed. I get more of a feeling of the thought rather than the thought itself.  It’s more like a dream state in which the details of the dream can fade quickly upon waking.  I just closed my eyes for a quick meditation to understand this better.  It’s like I’m being led on a guided meditation into the future and into parallel worlds.  I have brief images that pass through my mind and I can feel joy or sorrow – in my case I felt joy.  The joy came when I felt a universe in which I’m writing more, in which I’m describing more about my experiences being in this amazing reality which is so rich and full.  My mind is in problem solving mode now and is trying to figure out how to bring this joy closer – how to make it more likely that I write more.  I realize now that I have strayed a bit from my original intention to describe what it feels like in my mind to travel through different realities.  There is more for me to say about my mind, but my soul wishes to speak.

Language is limiting and is ironically the source of much miscommunication.  My soul is difficult for me to know and describe.  I use the word soul to represent my experience of oneness.  My soul is a seemingly independent entity that is created from and a part of the one universal soul of the universe.  I know my soul to stay with me – to be stable and consistent as I travel through different dimensions of reality. I expect to, and do, recognize my soul when I awake in a new universe. When I say that I feel the influence of different dimensions on my soul, I mean that I feel an increase or decrease in joy.  By joy, I mean a feeling of being on a right path – on a path that the soul finds pleasing.

I feel a need to also mention my spirit.  I could edit my words above to add spirit to the list of “body, mind, and soul”.  I’m deciding not to because I wish to keep these words in a less filtered and more channeled form. Unlike my soul, my experience of my spirit is one of ever changing. My spirit is like a flickering flame with different shapes, colors, sounds, intensities. My spirit is never exactly the same, although it often takes on similar forms. My spirit is the light energy that radiates from the mass energy of my soul.  By connecting with my spirit, I can sense all of the different realities that are surrounding me in multi-dimensional reality space.  I experience each flicker of the flame of my spirit as a different reality.

It’s 1005 and I now feel complete with this share of my experience now having arrived in what feels like a “far away” reality.  I’m curious if I have developed my universe surfing skills sufficiently to stay here for a while and explore or if this has been only a short trip.

AAPL Stock Prediction for Oct 3, 2019

In NASDAQ Composite Index prediction for March 9, 2019, I was compelled to make a prediction about the stock market. I was feeling a large negative movement between Oct 5 and Oct 19, 2018 or on Nov 9, 2018.  While the NASDAQ did have significant moves down during both of these time periods, I’m wondering now if the feeling of large negative movement was coming from a more personal space based on my actual stock portfolio which is heavily weighted in Apple stock (AAPL).  On Oct 3, 2018, AAPL hit an all time high of $233.47 and today it is down over 20% from that high, opening at $178.37.  Could I surf to a universe where APPL stock is up over 25% from today by Oct 3, 2019?  In that universe, AAPL would be above it’s all time high price of $233.47.  While I can imagine how I could increase my odds of that universe, I do not feel a calling to do so due to the limited influence I believe I have on that event.  So, I’m left with a sense based primarily on wishful thinking that AAPL stock will hit a new all time high before Oct 3, 2019.