A couple days ago I binged watched Undone, a animated TV show on Amazon. I relate with Alma. I’ve tried before to “move my keys” and other items using my “superpower”. I sometimes experience time as moving backwards – effects occur earlier than their causes. It was difficult for me to associate Alma with someone with a mental illness. There is definitely a part of me that wants to not write about my thoughts and experiences around the nature or reality because I may begin believing things that are not true or my mind fractures into way too many parallel universes. A bigger fear is that the mind of someone else would fracture into too many parallel universes. So far, I feel pretty ground myself but I can see how easy it would be to become ungrounded.
I highly recommend watching Undone!