I was discussing masculine and feminine energy an hour ago. I received some confirmation of my belief that anyone, regardless of gender, can develop the ability to resonate with either masculine or feminine energy. I have noticed that over my life, I have sometimes resonated with more masculine energy and sometimes with more feminine energy. My experience is that I get better at resonating with the energy that I more often resonate. So, my challenge is to develop my “weaker” energy – the one that I less often resonate.
This feels similar to how I think about personality tests like the Myers-Briggs. Instead of being coded as an introvert or extrovert, I find that I get better at resonating with the energy of extrovert since that is the one I resonate with more often. However, when I challenge myself to be an introvert, I feel like I get better at resonating with introvert energy. In this way, I can avoid being drained in situations regardless whether I am being extroverted or introverted.
I sense that I come back to this post one day and make a list of masculine and feminine characteristics.
Some half-n-half borrowed from my Aunt, coincidentally in a “Pacific Coast” Pistachio Gelato container – Austin, Texas – June 9th, 2020
I woke up around 0730 this morning and the headache I had when I went to bed last night was gone, thankfully. I pondered pumping up the mostly flat back bike tire on the Schwinn bike that I purchased at a Riverside pawn shop last year. I remember that I bought it at the encouragement of a homeless guy who I had helped to pay off his pawnshop loan so he could get his guitar back. I had met the him while I was running underneath one of the bridges on the riverwalk and he was playing music with his other guitar. I also pondered swimming in the pool as I haven’t done that in a long time.
But the weather was overcast and perfect for running, so I ran out my back door and down the street to the local park. If I remember correctly, it’s about 2 miles from my door and back. I ran it slow and didn’t keep time. My goal was to just run it. I don’t have an Apple Watch anymore to time it because I gave that to my Aunt before my pandemic wormhole travels.
I now have showered and made a cup of coffee – not too strong – with some cacao, coconut oil, and a bit of creamer that my Aunt gave me before I had a chance to go to Whole Foods and buy groceries. I have also made a juice drink, mixing orange and tart cherry juice with some Q Tonic water, and some dried blueberries thrown in.
I remember spending my 50th birthday with the intention of doing things that I would be happy to do every day of my life. Not that I would necessarily do all of those things every day, but if any one of them became a habit that I couldn’t break, that I would be more than fine with that. When I woke up this morning, I felt a bit of that same spirit. With this intention, the details of the activity are not as important as the impact on my body, mind, spirit and soul. So, it doesn’t matter really whether I run, bike, swim, practice yoga, etc. It also doesn’t matter whether I drink hot coffee, tea, cacao, or lemon/ginger water. And the time that I do each activity can vary depending on my mood or schedule. OK, I think that gives me enough wiggle-room to not get confined into a box.
As I check twitter, I’m realizing that there is a more difficult part of this intention, which is to “only” do things that I would be happy doing every day. So, would I be happy checking twitter (or facebook, etc.) every day for the rest of my life? No, that sounds like a kind of time-out punishment. I imagine that many other people feel the same and yet we all also spend time doing activities that if we had to do them every day, it would be disheartening.
20200609T-1433: I’m cleaning up browser tabs and found this article comparing the 1918 and 2009 flu pandemics with this interesting quote involving research paper-1 and paper-2. The papers cause me to be concerned that we are possibly harming our children by keeping them from being infected by SARS-CoV-2 now. While society may benefit by school being closed, the children may be paying the price later in life when SARS-CoV-2 comes back to haunt them.
Structural similarities between the pandemic flu viruses of 1918 and 2009 may explain older adults’ apparent immunity to the newer virus, two scientific teams report today in two journals. Their results may also explain how pandemic viruses evolve into seasonal viruses, and could point the way toward development of future pandemic vaccines.
20200608M-2317 Austin, TX – I spent today going to Terry Black’s Barbecue for lunch and shopping at Whole Foods. I found myself buying food like there was a shelter-in-place order. I don’t remember the last time I spent so much at the grocery store. I have enough nuts and dried fruit to last for at least a few weeks.
Lunch at Black’s BBQ was an experience I haven’t had since the pandemic shelter-in-place rules went into effect. As I ordered, I found myself surprised by the question “Is this order to eat here or to go?” Tables were six feet apart and there was indoor and outdoor seating. The place started to fill up as I ate.
Terry Black’s Barbecue “Our Dining Room is Open” – Austin, Texas – June 8th, 2020
I’m beginning to notice differences in people. There are some people who seem to be from the “no pandemic fear” universe and others who are definitely in the “pandemic fear” universe. It seems that the coronavirus is going to spread as it will. What seems different is how much attention people pay to it and how much they react to it’s spread.
I’m still having a bit of congestion and a mild headache on the right side of my forehead. It comes and goes throughout the day. I’ve been sleeping poorly – like being jet lagged. It’s interesting to me to note that on the day I had decaf coffee instead of caffeinated, I thought I had caffeinated and my Aunt didn’t realize it mattered, so if the universe worked on the “your mind controls your reality” method, then it seems that I would not have gotten a caffeine headache. Likewise, ignoring a novel coronavirus will not prevent one from being infected by it. However, it may affect the bodies response to the infection. If someone is fearful of becoming sick, then that fear itself can weaken the immune system and make it more likely that the get sick if infected.
While I imagined being able to eat at Black’s BBQ by now, I think for most people the fear of the pandemic is going to continue. We are going to enter an interesting time in which life will begin going back to normal while the novel coronavirus is still circulating the globe.
20200607u-2329 Austin, TX – About 48 hours ago, I arrived at my home in Austin, TX after driving 2 long days from Santa Cruz, CA. I slept quite well the first night, but last night I didn’t sleep most of the night. I had a bad headache all day yesterday and sinus congestion, both on the right side of my head. I finally got to sleep around 5am and slept almost until 11am. I felt a bit better but then had a new symptom – diarrhea.
Googling “covid19 symptoms” right now gives this list with the note that “Symptoms may appear 2-14 days after exposure to the virus. People with these symptoms may have COVID-19:”
Fever or chills
Cough
Shortness of breath or difficulty breathing
Fatigue
Muscle or body aches
Headache
New loss of taste or smell
Sore throat
Congestion or runny nose
Nausea or vomiting
Diarrhea
Luckily, I only have 3 symptoms from this list and I can imagine other reasons for my symptoms that seem more probable to me than being due to COVID-19. I partially blame my Aunt for my headache. She graciously offered me coffee yesterday morning and neglected to tell me it was decaf. Apparently, my caffeine intake the previous few days involved more than my 1 cup/day limit. This, along with possible dehydration, likely caused my headache.
That said, I did drive through a number of states, including Arizona which is second to California in having the most number of new daily cases of COVID-19 at 1438 yesterday (CA had 2763). The other states I drove through were Nevada (189 new cases), New Mexico (140 new cases), and Texas (935 new cases).
There were a couple of different universes I was feeling as I drove through Arizona. In one universe, I got a hotel in Flagstaff and then stayed at an AirBnB in Lubbock the next night. I had confirmed the AirBnB room was available but didn’t reserve it. In the other universe, I drove past Flagstaff and then drove another long day to Austin the next day. When I was an hour from Flagstaff around 7pm, I noticed highway signs “Emergency Curfew 8pm – 5am”. I assumed this was due to the recent protests against police brutality. As I entered Flagstaff at 8pm, I exited to look for a hotel. I didn’t see any hotels at the exit and saw the road was carrying me to downtown Flagstaff. I made a split decision to u-turn and get back on the highway instead of going downtown. About an hour later, I saw a large number of police car lights on the highway. As I approached, I saw that the opposite lane of traffic driving towards Flagstaff was blocked and there were miles of mainly 18-wheelers stopped on the highway. Luckily, the road out of Arizona was not blocked and I made it safely into New Mexico by 10:30pm. I was thinking of stopping at the Rest Area just across the state border, but it was closed. I ended up staying at a hotel in Gallop, NM. Masks were required at the hotel (and all of New Mexico). This was different as most people were not wearing masks at all of the stops I made for gas that day.
I have a slight headache and a bit of congestion now. I’m looking forward to sleeping well and feeling better tomorrow.
One benefit I gain from having a small number of followers and viewers of my blog is that the odds are large that major news sources are not getting their story ideas from me. If I read something randomly in the news that I feel generates an event in my past, it’s synchronistic.
As an example, I just read a CNN article discussing how the recent WHO vote around China shows that geopolitics is changing post pandemic. What felt synchronistic to me, was the following words from the article starting with “five months into 2020”:
“Five months into 2020 and it already feels like a new era: now there is only BC and AC — before and after coronavirus.” If I imagine that time can go backwards too, and that when we act in the present, it is also affected by our potential futures as well as our potential pasts.
Then I can understand how me reading this quote randomly in this moment is one of the possible futures that I felt in my past when I started writing my blog posts with “Day 1”, “Day 2”, etc. And then added “Day 0”, “Day -1”, etc.
Oh wow! I’m looking back at my day 0 post, which was the first one I searched for to find a link, and it is also about the WHO! Even feels more synchronistic to me!!
As the link confirms, I started writing Day 0 and Day -1 posts on May 7th, which was 128 days after Dec 31st. 128 is significant to me because of its binary conversion. I remember struggling with whether to call Dec 31st Day 0 or Day -1.
I have had this blog for a while. It stated as mainly a place to post the pages of the first and only book I’ve written: Surfing the Multiverse: Finding Happiness One Universe at a Time by J. Sands Loch
The book is a very lightly edited copy of the original journal entries I wrote as I had my first experience of noticing that the world is not as it appears – that reality can be viewed through a lens of parallel universes and things make more sense.
Writing the book felt partly like writing a personal diary and partly like channeling words from another source of knowledge. I’ve never had such a strong urge to write and have never written with such regularity. After writing it, I told few. But I began using the knowledge.
When I viewed the world through a lens of multiple parallelish worlds all going on simultaneously and interfering with one another, the world as I experienced it made more sense to me and I could understand cause and effect in a timeless manner.
So now, while it is still a bit surprising and somewhat against my scientific method training to believe that my reading of a CNN article today affected my blogging in the past, I suspend my belief in the unidirectionality of time and accept what flows from there.
This allows me to understand why I suddenly started almost daily blogging at the beginning of this year:
I’m curious how this thread will appear and be read in parallel worlds. When I wrote the first post, I had to correct it because the first time I wrote it, I wrote “odds are small” instead of what I meant to say “odds are large”. Luckily the words have the same number of letters.
surfing the universe 